afsos hai

Tere aanson ka bhi mujhse naata hai.
Wo na Jaane kyon mujhe bhi rulata hai.......
Teri siski mujhe tadapati hai....
Saari Raat jagati hai...

meri hi baaton se tumhara dil tootata hai.....
Mera Sabse apna mujhse roothta hai...

Jaan tumhe Bahut pyar karne ka vaada hai.....Mera pyar aapke liye kisi se bhi zyada hai...

meri wajah se aaye hue har aanson ke liye sharminda hoon....dil hi dil me, Tumhari kasam Bahut pachtata hun...akele me Kabhi Kabhi ro jaata hun......

Humesha Haath thamunga Aapka
koshish kar ke kam rulanunga

my wife

its all so beautiful that I don’t know what to say
its all so heavenly that I feel like in heaven
its all so pious that I feel divine
its all so magical that I feel blesses
its all come after such a long time that I wanna never let it go
its all so much meaningful that nothing else means more
it keeps happening slowly inside every moment that it suddenly become wild.....
its you...my wife...

tere saath chalte chalte

Tere saath chalet chalte

Kat jaigi zindagani

Ban jaegi humari kahani

Tere saath chalte chalte



Katega Safar hanste hanste

Utha lunga tumhe agar tumhare kadam thakte

Tere saath chalet chalte



Khoob baatein hongi

Khawabon ki subah, umeedon ki raat hongi.

Tere saath chalet chalte



Kabhi kabhi khit pit hogi

Mana lunga tumhe…kabhi dil me doori na hogi

Tere saath chalte chalte



Khoob kahenge piyenge

Chai, pizza, sizzlers ki dawat hongi

Phir long drive me

Gungunate hue nikal jaenge hum



Mil ke janam denge apne nanhe munne

Jinhe karenge saath bada

Chahe kuch bhi ho jae...

Please rehna saath sada



Phir ek din jab ho jaenge budhe

Aur chali jaogo tum mujhse bahut door

Aa jaonga main bhi jaldi hi

Phir wahan chalunga saath tumhare

aaj bhi nai si lagti ho

Us raat se jis raat hum mile the

Is pal tak jsime main ye tumse kehta hun

Kai lamhe beet gae, kuch badal gaya hai

Per aaj bhi tum mujhe apni taraf kheechti ho

Aaj bhi pehle din jaisi lagti ho



Tab tum anjaan thi, aaj apni ho

Tab ye zindagi ek khayal tha, aaj hakikat

Tab main tumhe sochta tha

Aaj tumhe jeeta hun

Ye nigahen aaj bhi tumhe ghoorti hain

Kuch to badal gaya hai tab se

Per aaj bhi nai jaisi lagti ho



Pehle choone ki soch se hi badan kaampta tha.

Pehle tumhare badan ki khushboo me nahane ki aas thi

Tumhare ras ko peene ki, usme doobne ki aas thi

Aaj sab kuch paas hai

Per phir bhi kyon waisi hi tadpati ye pyas hai



Pehle sochta tha zindagi haseen hogi

Ye zameen aasman se rangeen hogi

Aaj ye sab haqeeqat hai

Aaj har saans ko tumhari zaroorat hai

Sab kuch jaise socha waisa hi hua hai

Phir kyon tumhe phir pane ka man karta hai



Kuch kuch badal gaya hai

Per aaj bhi tum wohi naai si lagti ho

ek saathi jo kahin choot gaya

tere gham se mera bhi to nata hai
ye aaj bhi mujhe satata hai
tere dil se purana aisa naata hai
kabhi kabhi aaj bhi koi khayal
hansata hai..rulata hai

zindagi ne laga di hai
kuch bandishen
dekh sakta nahi tuhje
sun sakta tujhe nahi
per meri dil se teri liye dua ka vaada hai

life right now

What am I fighting for, what am I waiting for
A life that promises to be full of insults...
This is not the love I wanted
This is not the one I wanted
This is not the feeling I had...
This is not the feeling I deserve
This is not the life I dreamt….
That someone dear will threaten me
That someone near will abuse me
That a friend will manipulate
That my mate will not protect
That the love will be conditional
That sex will become a prize…
That the I need to buy love with self respect
And eventually be left with none…
That I will not be loved for what I am
That I will not be able to walk with pride
That I will have to change so much that I lose my real self
That I my successes will be shared but not my failures
That I will have to walk alone for my dreams…
That I have to cry alone…and no one will wipe my tears

Earlier love was simple…it was just
Feelings…to give and sense
There was nothing to prove..
Both loved to love….and there was no expectation
It was sharing of whtever there was..and between us there was plenty..
We were happy

Now its complicated…
Love got coloured with money, status, social acceptance,
Clothes, shape , colour ,
Now its how others feel about us not how we feel
Love is no longer a there …its a showcase for others
Pleasure is not in togetherness, but in how others see us
It has become commercial….and so it is no longer there
We want others to certify …..
Love s not there….the world spoilt it…
We let the world spoil it……
We were always running to be seen as better..
We were trying to find solution to others chaotic minds
We stopped enjoying our togetherness…
We stopped appreciating the feel of our hands
The stopped looking into each other
We stopped everything we started with
And today we have lost all….most imp the feeling that we started it


Somewhere up in the sky made me unique..
Then why do I need to change to something else..for someone else..
Why don’t I revolt, I can
Why don’t I move away, I can
Because …………..i don’t know..
May be one day I will quietly walk away…
But I know all this is not weakness..i am strong…
And SO I EXIST….

I may not shout, but I am very capable
By talent is based on sweat and not words
I may not be flashy everyday…but I am the best when I want to be
Because I am modest….because I like to be that way
Because I want to be approachable…
I know I am the king..but I don’t want to be dressed like one..
I want to be simple..humble…
Let someone mistake my simplicity, my substance for lack
I want to use my POWER for upliftment and not to create slaves
Because I want people to know me from how they felt with me and
Not what I pretended to be…
I am myself..I like myself

For the first time in my life
i want to meditate.............
cannot handle the chaos inside.
chaos that is resultant of choices..
but would have any other choices been less chaotic..
i m sure not....
I see around people so relaxed..
why am i not one of them..
i was so earlier now...why m i not now..
everything is fine....why is the happiness so conditional
why have i become a sponge..why dont I hit back..
what makes me soak....what makes me take this suffering
i am not bad i know...my intentions are never bad i know..
then why is it not visible....
feel so lonely inside...
the crusader inside me wants to roar
i know i need to walk alone...
my convictions will be my only allies..
i need to keep walking...keep walking..
...just keep walking....